It hardly seems real or fair, but Shanelle’s last day as an A.R.T. Intern is today. We’re calling it a “pause,” though, because we have no doubt that Shanelle will be back (if not backstage, then onstage). Thank you, thank you, thank you, Shanelle!
Read what our intrepid high school intern has been up to lately, and stay tuned for a wrap-up post next week.
Life for this artist has been busy. It seems like once junior year happened academics and arts, almost automatically, just meshed together. The balance of the both of them has been one heck of a rollercoaster ride that definitely seems to be going faster than what I expected (it’s basically the end of January!) but nonetheless, I’m still enjoying the ride of being a 16 year-old artist who’s crazy in love with school and learning.
Lately, I’ve been all over the place but somehow I’m managing to maneuver through all that I have going on and miraculously continue to maintain the good vibes that I’ve been feeling with life nowadays. Honestly my schedule and my organization is something that I can’t even describe; all I know is that I have stuff to do everyday and it gets done somehow at some place during some time of the day. Like right now I’ve been reading and writing scripts daily, I’ve been asked to be assistant director for the Boston Arts Academy’s take on Romeo and Juliet, I’ve been watching plays, interviewing multiple positions in the theater (i.e directors, playwrights, actors, dramaturges), and planning a trip to broadway for the spring. With all of this going on it should be no surprise that my internship at the A.R.T has came to a pause on the last day of the semester. It’s crazy; how everything has an end— and the journey to that destination is where all the memories lie. All the smiles, all the struggle and grieving, all the growing … It’s all right there in the journey! I got to say it’s amazing and stressful finishing this journey between arts, academics, and a lovely internship but it’s definitely all good— this journey or the process of finding oneself— it’s good.
One thing’s for sure, I’ve definitely embraced the fact that I’m growing up and I know that for a lot of teenagers that can mean one of two things: depression or freedom. I guess I look at it as freedom— mostly because I’ve been through the depressed stage of it already, and partially because I can see a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel. I guess I’m hanging onto hope— just like everyone else. Hope is like the father of determination (if you don’t consider them synonyms). I think determination comes from that of having hope and currently, I’ve been hoping for a lot and that hope transcends into my artistry and academics because in both of these aspects, theater and school, I’m pushing myself. I’m determined, almost to the point of insanity, to achieve goals and aspirations because hope is guiding me through life.
Also, I’ve been thinking about college a lot. The idea of college asks me to look inside myself and question not only “who do I want to be?” but “who do I need to be?” “Where do I want to go?” versus “what do I need to see?” These questions are the ones that’ve been bouncing around in my head for a while now and they’re becoming more apparent every day as my path in life continues to change. I believe that my faith will bring me there though; to the revelation that’ll show me my purpose. So in order to get closer to the answers of these questions I’ve just been wandering a little bit; and that’s probably the main reason why I’ve taken on so much to do. I went big this year, in terms of taking on tasks, and have been exploring the many levels of my being and who I really am to this world, this community, and myself. Once I know that, I can understand what I need, and eventually what the world needs from me.
Overall, I’ve just been doing a lot of soul searching and it’s been exciting! This opportunity, being here at the A.R.T studying my passion, has been sensational and most definitely fulfilling— something that I’ll cherish and treasure for as long as I live. The A.R.T has given me my wings to fly and become the artist that I know I can be. This position has shown me— from studying actors process in class to elaborate sets for shows— that creativity and art and freedom of expression is still around and it isn’t going anywhere.
It’s so funny looking back on my time here and reminiscing on my first days here… I was pumped! Everyday being able to walk into a building and hearing phrases like “So today you’re going to be taking notes during The Light Princess rehearsal” to “So Shanelle, today you’re going to research Bob Fosse” (who’s an amazing Broadway choreographer by the way!) to “So today you’ll be writing your last post as an intern at the A.R.T.” It’s funny. It’s funny and it’s beautiful and it’s a blessing that I have the opportunity to say that I’ve been here and I’ve been a medium for this organization, in some way, to improve and keep that creativity and freedom of expression flowing through the community’s blood.
I’m 95% thankful, 3% elated, and 2% full of smiles and hope for the future. I’ve been seeing a lot and as I step away from the A.R.T I only hope to keep my eyes open wide because I don’t want to miss a thing! I won’t stop taking on way too many tasks at once. I will never apologize for giving my all. And I promise to always, always, always ask questions and seek knowledge in any nook or cranny. I’m here, and the A.R.T providing this internship and school being what it is has proven to me that it’s for a reason. I’m here for a reason. Not to say goodbye and not to go away forever but to finally say hello to the world and my dreams. So hello to you all and have a happy 2014! Make the best of this year and your life by smiling often, laughing hard, and being the best person you can be- because you can and you have only one life to live. So take risks, stay strong, and believe in yourself because I believe in you and I know you can do it. Thank you American Repertory Theater for a wonderful experience and I hope you have an amazing continuation of your year! Happy friday and happy living :) See you soon!